pain demands to be felt.

Love... is like... fire.

I know this to be unfailingly true, it is beautiful at times and others it stings. being in love with someone is a lot of work. Relationships take work, they aren't rainbows and butterfly's. it never stops, its an ongoing battle, it's just finding someone you want to fight the good fight with.

It was a good mistake

I did something fun to Amanda's hair today, it turned out really well

 

All you need is bobby pins! 

I kinda half waterfall braided her hair. And secured each section with a bobby pin. The part that sticks out and paired with her multi colored hair it looks intriguing. 

We also put a bow in it for something in the back but you could defiantly just leave it without a bow!

Its been a minute.

I'm back! I promise this time I will keep up and continue posting SOMETHING everyday. 

This has been a public service announcement: by yours truly 

On to the real problem though, the giants suck. We are going into the level as the browns and bears... Really guys?! Really?!

Sometimes it's extremely hard being a giants fan.

Where am I?

It's been a crazy couple weeks. I found out that my aunt Kathy passed away, so I drove to New Jersey for her funeral. It was wonderful to see my family, seeing Jackie's face light up when I walked in the door made me feel happy in light of the circumstances. A wonderful lady left us and we were all there to celebrate her life. She was a sweet heart and knew how to love fully. 

After driving 6hours back I finally managed to make it back to get no sleep at all from a crazy kitten. Her name is bean and she's psycho. I love her though, coming home to her being happy to see me makes my days/nights worth it 

I do miss my other baby peanut, back home. She made me feel like everything was worth it. I miss you peanut, you would like bean. She's as sassy as you 

Here's some pictures from the last couple weeks and our(Amanda and I) recent trip to Maryland for Perkins<3

I did her hurrr.

Last night Amanda asked me to do her hair. I was really impressed by how it turned out 

Changing some things around

We I decided to change my blogs name and title, because it was just to negative for me to look at. I didn't want to throw this blog away like I have with so many others, I've actually grown quite fond of the little guy. 

Yesterday was Dylan's birthday, me and Amanda split the cost of his presents because we are so broke and lame kids(insert okay emoji) here's a lovely picture of the princess

We watched Harry potter and are fast food because that's all we can afford. 

I'm very excited about work today 3-8 here I come! Oh go team USA! 

That's about all for today, nothing very exciting is happening besides the Fourth of July and that's about it.  

Anyone back home, if you are reading, I miss your guys out. 

Lostgirlnicole

This has been my longest running screen name here on the internet and I love it very much. 

Lostgirlnicole

I first got the idea because I'm a huge Peter Pan fan, and if there were lost boys, why couldn't there be lost girls? But it's grown to so much more for me. 

Being a lost girl still always goes back to wishing I was taken away to neverland, but I also get lost while driving or going anywhere in life, and some times getting lost makes for the best adventures. I've found that out so many times over and over and I refuse to be found. Moving north has made me so lost and it's the thrill of not knowing my surroundings and have to adventure out and figure out where I am, that I crave. 

I also know that I lose my way to an actual future with a job and salary and family but I always find my way back to it. And when I do it makes it better everytime to realize what I'm trying to achieve. Being lost is a blessing for me.

If you ever get lost, look at it as the universe saying "hey, slow your roll kid. You have your entire life to figure it out" far to often we think we need to settle down right away, and yes everyone's life is different. But if you haven't found someone yet, or you just got out of a bad relationship, or you are just lost, don't worry about it. Everything will come to you in time. The universe knows what it can throw at you. 

Just enjoy being lost 

Once you accept your life and what hand you've been delt, peace comes to you and you can start being one with the world.

Here's a cool pic I took when I got lost today. The storm was coming in right at this time and it was just so perfect. 

Find something that you fall in love with everyday. 

Take one day at a time.